Sometimes we all just have to laugh at ourselves. Always remember to smile…it increases face value! :)

In life, lies are going to be told. But in my life, the biggest lie is “family is forever.” Nothing hurts worse than being abandoned by a family member. My life long companion got with the man she is now married to and practically forgot her biological family. I dtarted my very first relationship reaching into the dark…no sisterly guidance whatsoever. I had tragic moments in said relationship and needed my sister…but never got tje advice I needed from her. The pain of “losing” my sister is one of the greatest pains I have ever felt.

Day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute… Breathing in and breathing out, My heart beats slowly, barely whispering a sound.

The world flies by and I am still in the past, I hold onto your memory, Even after you have been gone so terribly long.

My heart yearns for your affection, My arms reach for your embrace, I know you are no longer in my life, never to return.

Slowly I will come around, But my heart will always be here by this stone, As long as I am near you, everything will be ok.

I am going to go now, Have no fear, I shall soon return, I won’t ever forget you, not as long as I live.

Someday we will be together again, We’ll all be smiling and laughing, just like the good old days, But until then, I will say I love you and I miss you dearly.

Sometimes we all think we are so alone in this world. What many of us don’t realize is the fact that most of us have parents, or parent figures, that are there to help us. I can say this because personally, I never realized this until just recently.

My boyfriend of a little over six months and I had been fighting. What was miserable was he had to go to work before we could solve everything. My mother picked me up from my grandma’s to take me home. On the eighteen mile drive, I began crying silently. I turned away from my mother so she wouldn’t notice…unfortunately, she did. When she asked me what was wrong, I sat there for a moment not wanting to tell. I choked back a sob and told her about the fight. But then I told her it wasn’t the fight I was crying about…it was the fact that we had been fighting so much lately, how I felt I was a disappointment to my parents, and how I missed my sister. Slowly, my mother calmed me out of my hysteria.

I am thankful to have two loving parents that are there for me when I am in need of guidance. I think in the past week, I have come to acknowledge the fact of that is one reason God gave us parents.

So…I realized today I am a loner again. In a way I guess. I still have my boyfriend, Billy, my family, and my job…but no girl friends to confide in. :(